Today marks 30 days since I ceased to imbibe alcohol. At that time I had been drinking and been drunk every evening for more consecutive days, weeks and months than I could remember. I finally decided to pull the plug after about 3 previous attempts spread out over the last 4 years or so, of which the longest period of abstinence was about 5 months.
This moment is not unfamiliar to me. After one month my physical body has pretty much fully reset itself. There´s no more fog. It feels like I sleep at the bottom of the ocean and get no less than a solid 7 hours straight each night before waking up full of beans, clear-headed and fresh as a daisy. No longer binge eating large amounts of processed foods, and instead now having a natural desire to eat mostly whole foods, I can only describe now feeling as having stepped into a different body. A healthy strong fit and functioning body. We can get used to these wonderful sensations pretty quickly as we start to feel physically great around the clock; it becomes the new normal.
The mind and its response on the other hand is a different kettle of fish. How quickly and easily we can forget how bad it was! And it was really really fucking back. I was literally destroying myself from the outside in and inside out. Poison in. Anger — stress — self-loathing — anxiety — frustration — lack of patience — loss of time — lost of concentration — mood swings — high and low…
